will not be updating anything here.. changing my blog to livejournal.. below is the new link.. do change the link in ur blogs.. :) thanks.. n sorry for e trouble.. cos livejournal has more features.. n n n n .. it seems more professional.. like u know suit me more.. hehe.. jking jking..


http://patriciamah.livejournal.com/

sooo.. link link.. hehe.. :)
Patricia ♥ || 1:19 AM

An awesome day at Universal Studio today!! but.. just before everything started.. at e entrance of uss.. my mood seriously went straight into e drain!! like immediate grumpiness!! *pout* bring a cam tat has no battery seriously sucks to e max.. like.. RRRRROOOOOOOOOOAAAAAAAAAARRRRRRRRR!!!

i was all excited e night b4.. thinking bout how fun it can be.. playing, taking nice photos n enjoying.. sooo excited that i forget to check my cam battery.. standing outside USS.. taking out my cam to take photo of me n darling.. attempting to on the cam.. shit.. no batt!! like my mood seriously just went down.. i seriously almost wana cry lah.. like all looking forward to this day n everything.. in e end this stupid small idiot irritating battery can just totally spoil my mood.. ok.. lucky darling's fren brought a cam.. but e feeling is different.. u cant take photos freely n on ur own pace.. like.. u get wat i mean??

went in.. e grumpiness got worse when u see everybody.. yes EVERYBODY starting to go *click click click* on their cam.. :_( i totally have no mood to play n even take photo at all.. like AHHHHHHHHHHHH!!! plus e stupid hot n humid weather.. e whole place is like packed.. seriously i got sooo pek chek n stuff.. ok.. sorry that my face got alittle black, or become e blackest black face one can see.. like.. shit.. idiot. all e vulgarities can just come out.. i feel like scolding everybody i see on e street.. this shows how angry n pek chek i got.. like.. i was sooo super duper excited n looking forward to this day!! tat i was alittle counting down to this day like afew days b4.. but just one stupid battery spoil my mood.. throw all my excitment away..

plus.. this is e first time n maybe e last time i am coming in.. n its all spoiled by this stupid thing.. i seriously just wana like slam e whole thing on e floor n sit on e floor to cry.. ok overexaggerating.. but ya..

ok.. but at least my mood pick up alittle on our first show.. izzit the show or ride.. ok.. i forgotten.. cos seriously i was super moody.. but cos e show or ride was good.. soo my mood got better.. ya..

ok some introduction of universal studio.. my own opinion.. i think that its sort of a must for singaporeans, especially like pple from small kids till like working adults or pple aged 35 n below..

cos...
1) everybody is talking about it.. kinda malu n mountain tortise not to know a single bit or like went in before..

2) old people, grandparents in wheelchair, even injured pple(eg. a man with an injured neck) went there too.. isnt it weird for pple within that age group to go too??

3) its good to feel young again.. taking all e rides, bring back our childhood memories when u look at all e characters n everything.. its good to be young sometimes.. no harm.. :)

4) a good place for couples n even families(ps. saw lots of big group of families in there) to enjoy each others company n have fun tgt..

5) something that singapore has never had before.. since now its here.. might as well go in n have a look.. doesnt harm to pay $50 for entrance fee.. ($66 for a ticket, but it include $10 voucher, where $5 for u to buy food n another $5 for souvenirs). soo quite reasonable..

6) u can spend e whole day there.. u can leave e place like go some other parts of sentosa first n enter back into it to continue playing again..

7) it has rides similar to Wild Wild Wet and Escape.. but of cos USS has more than rides, they have 4D shows(super uber duper nice.. like really cool.. darling said it was nice.. n he seldom praise something to be nice.. other than say i am nice.. hehehehe..), also all e cute characters for u to take photos with..

8) lots of tourists in there.. kinda not v good if we duno hows it like inside rite??

ok so far i can think of these reasons.. cos i got kinda emo when i wrote e 1st half of my entry.. about e cam thing.. hai.. seriously.. i am soo careless.. like.. ok.. dun wana talk about it.. if not i got all upset again..

ok.. cos both me n darling boy got kinda tired n alittle grumpy, plus aft rain n he is not v into rides, we leave early.. went to queensway.. another round of walking.. ok.. aft awhile our legs got all tired.. like seriously suan!! 2mr our legs will ache like nobody's business.. haha.. baby boy got his portugal jersey.. with no. 7 RONALDO!! woot.. mad nice.. seriously.. hehe.. but too bad cant get his fave holland no. 10.. went around looking for a new bag for myself at anchorpoint.. but found nth.. sian..

ok.. should stop here.. long entry full of emotions n complaint..
Patricia ♥ || 11:28 PM

yay!!! My baby boy is coming back 2mr.. Miss him loads!! Even though he just call me earlier.. But we just take bout 1 min.. :( but i just cant stop smiling during tat 1 min.. :) he is just sooo cute.. Hehe.. Darling i am going to squueze ur face like a thousand times when i meet u.. Hehe.. Cant wait!! Time pls move faster.. Quickly.. Hehe.. I miss u X1000000000000!!! Hehe.. Most imptly, i can feel tat u enjoy urself alot.. Hehe.. Which is my aim for u to go overseas.. :) goody good.. Hehe.. Cant wait to cuddle up with u..

My day today is just another boring day.. Sian.. Actually theres tuition.. But my student had excursion(izzit this spelling?? Sorry i am not a spelling bee.. Hehe..).. Soo cancelled.. @#*&@#*&% irritating.. Hai.. Have to get more tuition!! Cos more tuition=more $$.. Hehe..

Ok.. My hair.. I have no choice but to change e parting for awhile b4 my fringe can be more natural when i go back to my old parting.. Sian.. Sooo uncomfortable lah.. I would mess up my hair eventually.. Cos subconsciously i would touch my hair n arrange back to e old parting.. Hai.. Sian!! Seriously.. I hate tat aunty!!! Hmpf!!!

Ok.. Time for me to slp.. Slp tight darling.. Sweet dreams of me!! Hehe.. :) <3
Patricia ♥ || 2:09 AM

ahhhh!! shouldnt have trust my sister n brother.. they went to a new place to have a haircut.. n they commented how good how good this place is.. ok.. i went there to try it out.. nope!! they r totally cheated by them.. like.. all e normal knowledge of hair they got it all wrong.. who will pull their wet hair n comb their wet hair with a comb.. not a brush.. huh??!!!?? pls lah.. hair break easily when wet.. soo its always that its semi-dry b4 pple comb.. n nobody comb with a comb for wet hair.. use a brush!! it wont be soo harsh on e hair!! omg!! ok nvm.. who cut with wet hair?? pls lah.. wet hair is always longer than dry hair.. u cut it.. it will become shorter when its dry..



they shorten my hair.. when i only wan a trim!! omg.. stupid pig.. i took soo long to have my long hair.. ok nvm.. i was just wanting to trim my fringe.. e woman even know how to describe e style i wanted.. n guess wat.. they spoil my fringe.. ROAR!! i hate it now.. nv will i step into tat place anymore.. plus its super pricy for their standard.. pls lah..



they even try to boast their"knowledge of hair".. pls.. all wrong.. hai.. ok.. have to wait quite awhile b4 my hair can be in good shape again.. *sigh*



ok.. i sounded alittle bad-tempered.. maybe cos of PMS.. plus due to e super hot weather.. omg.. wat kinda weather is this.. its like sauna.. i think its like 31 or 32 degrees celsius.. crazy.. mad.. even if one doesnt wear clothes.. it is still hot.. omg.. crazy weather..



darling boy is in genting now with his friends n his mummy.. :) finally he got to have a break from everything aft his exams.. he has been working immediately aft exam ends.. like huh??!! hehe.. silly boy.. :) hopefully he wont take out his "book" to "study".. just enjoy yourself kk?? hehe.. though i miss him.. but i want him to enjoy himself more than i miss him.. :) this is e power of love i guess.. e more u love him.. e more u want him to have e best of everything n enjoy himself.. :) though i was alittle sad tat i have to hang up his call aft afew secs of talk when he reached genting.. all cos i went to have a lousy haircut.. shouldnt have went there lah.. seriously.. wrong choice.. i should have stay at home.. so that i can get to talk to him longer.. n show him how happy i am when he call me.. tat stupid aunty.. when i was on e phone.. she keep staring at me instead of concentrating on my hair.. tats y i feel soo weird to show my enthusiastical feelings!! ROAR!! ok e more i say.. e angrier i get.. i seriously shouldnt have gone there.. i wont get a spoilt haircut.. i will get to talk to my darling longer.. ROAR!! AHHHHHH!!!


ok..end here ba.. hopefully my darling will be able to be online later.. so tat i can explain to him.. :) miss ya darling.. :)
Patricia ♥ || 9:22 PM

18 may.. e day we are born to love each other!! :) we r both born at kk hosp.. only 2 years different.. hehe.. isnt it soo nice n.. i duno.. hehe.. just soo sweet.. hehe.. (^-^)v i am like smiling to myself when typing this.. :)


quite pity that we cant spend e whole day together.. but its ok.. :) as long i get to spend time with u.. everything is also good.. hehe.. my 21st, ur 23rd.. hehe.. hope u like all my presents.. though not as good as all ur other presents.. which make me alittle demoralise.. but.. its ok.. next time i give u a super uber good one.. super uber expensive one.. kk?? hehe.. promise!!





meetup at douby ghaut.. ate swensen ice cream.. aww.. long since i eat ice cream.. hehe.. ran in e rain with darling.. ok.. i need to exercise.. like soon.. just afew metres n i am panting like i just ran a maraton.. haha.. went to play pool.. N N N!! i beat darling... in 1 game.. wahahahaha.. proud of myself.. hehe.. yay yay yay yay!! hehe.. ok.. i seldom win him in pool.. cos he is e king of pool.. while i am like e "servant of pool" haha.. ya.. soo big difference.. soo i can win him once.. i am super duper happy!!





hehe.. aft that went clark quay to have dinner at jumbo seafood restaurant.. cool.. nice food..


(^-^)b thumbs up.. but quite pricy.. haha.. n they provide e "apron napkin".. super cute lah.. haha.. soo now i know how my darling look like with an apron on.. hehe.. maybe i should buy a super cute or funny apron for him next time.. wahahaha.. ok.. off topic already.. hmm.. but one thing.. i think they should serve their crab with a warmer.. instead of just a wooden board.. cos its like e air con is cold.. n pple tend to eat slower with crab.. soo e crab turn cold like faster than normal food.. n pple like me.. who take a long time to eat.. somemore its crab.. ya.. by then i finish eating.. i am like eating cold dish instead of something warm.. hehe.. one thing to improve..





the first time i feel soo shy in front of darling.. ahhhh!!.. i think i blush lor.. cos i feel my face super warm.. hehe..dun think soo u can see it cos its quite dark.. hehe.. but aww.. now say le still feel soo shy.. see lah.. darling.. u lah.. make me uber shy.. hehe.. but glad u like e present.. :) hehe.. :)





ok.. am little lazy to upload e photos here.. cos super troublesome.. n like alot!! sooo i only upload one photo tat i love e most..







love you my cute darling.. love to squeeze ur face.. hehe.. <3
Patricia ♥ || 11:24 PM

in 2 more days' time.. Wahahaha.. I am a free birdie.. Hehe.. Sooo looking forward to it.. Aww!! Stupid exams make me lose my life.. As in make me have no life.. Ya.. Haha.. Make me like a walking zombie.. With books n notes in my hand.. Trying to squeeze all of them into my tiny winy brain.. Next year.. No matter wat.. I must.. Have to.. Study really hard.. Like no more next time le.. Force myself to study throughout e whole year.. Stressful year next year lah.. Sooo have to enjoy myself to e max aft exams.. *woot!!* hehe..

Actually some things just cant turn out e way i want it to be.. kinda disappointed.. But.. No choice.. Wats done cant be undone.. Wats going to happen in future.. We just cant control much.. No matter how hard we try.. Soo.. Hai.. Just let it be ba.. No choice..

Having a lili surprise for my darling boy on our bdae.. Hmm.. Not sure if its a surprise for him.. Ya.. But.. Hmm.. Duno leh.. Hmm.. Ehh.. Hehe..
Patricia ♥ || 11:10 AM

aww. Seriously. I am soooo hating stupid exams. If exam is a human. I will definitely strangle it. Kill it super many times.. ROAR!!!! I HATE EXAMS!!! Stupid thing make me lost my life.. I hate being stuck at home just to study. I wana go out to play!!! I wan do sooo many things.. But stupid exams are pulling me down. Hai... 2 weeks of torture... Ok enough of complaining bout exams. I wish i can go through e 2 days with 3 papers safely. Seriously. these 2 days will be a killer for me. Hai.. But aft tat.. It will be more relaxing for me. 5 days till e next paper. Quite reasonable. Haha. But of cos.. I am soooo looking forward to 17 may. I think i am sooo going to celebrate lah. Like i duno. A breakthrough to freedom!!!!! Lalalalala.. ^_^v 17 may....

Ip man 2 is nice. Ok. Some parts are quite boring. Cos i am like falling aslp n lying on Darling's shoulder.. Hehe. But woot. Its nice.. Soo cool. Super nice. He is sooo uber cool.. I like e part tat he is always sooo calm. No matter wat happen... Cool.. Shuai.. Woot... But i realise his nose quite long ah.. Hehe. Okok. Wrong concentration. Haha..

Ok. Maybe its time for me to go back to my books.. I keep thinking i havent study at all. Aww. But thanks to Darling!! :) he is always there to try to help me destress.. Cheer me up when i am uber down.. Always there to encourage me n everything.. :) thank you Darling!! Thank you for always being there for me.. Thank you for being soo understanding.. Thank you for willing to take time to keep encouraging me again n againn when i am down... :) lastly.. Thank you for loving me again.. :) i love you.. :)
Patricia ♥ || 11:47 PM

i don't care!!! woot. heart this song. keep playing n playing.


should i go for luo zhi xiang concert. i am sooo tempted to go.. spore indoor stadium. 22rd may... aww. how??!!??!!??!! tics selling out fast!!! AAHHHHHHH... think think....


okok. haha. kinda random. haha. just recently found out tat one of my friend just brokeup with her bf too. like oops. wat is happening?? recently is e feng shui not good izzit?? quite a number of my friends remain single. haha. like 207. think soo far only 1 is attached. though e others have hope lah. haha. those few. haha. all e best pple. jia you orh. haha.
Patricia ♥ || 1:20 AM

aww. i almost die today. serious. stupid reckless driver. dun let me catch u again. stupid van. crazy pig. its red light. time for me to cross. its 3 lane btw. n nearby theres a sch. soo e students were at e other side of e road. then e stupid van in front of me, just dash pass e red light. @#$@%$#$%!!! i almost step my 1st step lah. somemore its red light for quite awhile le. lucky i was looking at my hp n didnt immediately take my 1st step. omg. imagine tat. i cant imagine. cos e van was moving quite fast. like zoooom. scary. seriously. i hai. crazy. too shocked to take down e carplate. its only like afew mins later do i realise wat exactly had happen. even those students at e other side of e road was looking at me shocked too. cos i am e only one at e other end. imagine i move out. nobody could stop me in time. aww. i think i willl be drag n knock n fly afew metres. seriously i soo wan curse e stuppid driver. ok. this is my 1st shock..

2nd shock!! i grew white hair. like nth big. but this is my 1st strand... :( i am getting old. hai. ok. not really this. but guess wat. its raining again. n this means i will c snails coming out on e street on my way to tuition.. :( ok. i am guilty of killing one snail. eh. i think its a snail. not v sure. but cos its dark at night. cant see anything. no streetlights + construction. aww. eewweee. aft tat incident. everytime i walk tat stretch of road n everythime i walked, it will rain b4 tat. super suai. hai. i will be like super uptight. looking at e ground n try to figure out if it is a snail. n yes. i saw one just now. i practically scream n jump. super embarrassed. lucky nobody behind me. hai. i am super scared of things tat crawl. ccrazy things. disgusted. oh. its a snail n a lizard. yes. both. omg. i was stuned n yes i was half waiting for e snail to like move away b4 i dare to move. n realise tat it will not move fast enough to like catch up with me if i just run away. yes. silly me. hai. but i am realli scared of them. while typing this, i had goosebumps all over me!!! hai. scary... AHHHHH!!!

was chatting with one of my student. she was sec 1, talking bout justin bieber. n e 3 year old girl who cried sooo hard for him. haha. e last part was really funny. haha. hmm. for his age of 15, he is good looking lah. haha. but still a small kid. haha. n of cos, he has a nice voice. haha.

ok. time to go to lala land. last time i just cant slp. even with my attempt to slp early. hai. even with my "cotton balls".. haha. cotton balls story will talk bout it next time. time to slp slpy heads.. :) n lastly... stop thinking!!!!!
Patricia ♥ || 2:50 AM

thanks peeps!! thank you for being there for me. when i am down. :) thank you all of u. for being there when i tear, for being there when i am down, for being there when i know i am plainly bluffing myself. thank you for all your listening earsssss, shouldersssss, tissuessss and everything... :) though my doubts arent cleared. but at least i feel soooo much better now. thank you for taking all my rubbish, my nonsense and all my crap... :D btw, i decided not to clear my doubts. better to remain unknown then knowing e truth, which may hurt. sooo. best to let e "truth" remain as how it used to be.. :) i promised u all nv will i let it occupy my mind anymore. promise!!! hehe. thanks peeps. *hugs* more gatherings soon. after exams kk. hehe. btw i am not having bdae party. :( sooo. meetups will be my celebrations then.. hehe. kinda lazy n sian to have one aft my exams. somemore IMMEDIATELY. yes. my last paper on 17th may!!!!!! aww. how long more till tat day. i dun dare to countdown... scary!!! nightmare!!!

was looking at xiaxue's n dawn yang's blog. okok. i agree dawn yang can really make heads turn. saw her at raffles city 2 weeks ago. YES!! she make my head turn. haha. but overall. she is still artifical.. yes. n erm. my own opinion, quite "act".. yupyup. haha. whereas xiaxue is more down to ground type or should i say straightforward n more real. haha. tats y can see e difference of like one attached n e other single, even though shes gorgoeous. but all these are my own opinion ah. haha. of cos if i am a guy, i will befriend someone like dawn yang, but be with someone like xiaxue. cos its good to have pretty babes around as friends, n someone who is more real as gf. wahaha. isnt it?? haha. though she bleached her hair. haha. which is not v.. erm. ya. better not say. haha.

sunday. i can confirm with myself that I AM WEAK.. roar. of cos maybe cos it was a super duber uber hot day. serious. went to 扫墓. n when i reached, was quite ok. 5 mins later, i get alittle dizzy. within 10 mins, my whole face was soooo pale n i almost faint. roaar. how can i be soo weak. during my GB days, nv once did i faint. haha. nv even feel dizzy lah. seriously, i need to see e sun more often. ok. one of e outing have to be at e beach. i wana suntan alittle. woots. haha. all my relatives were saying i am too fair. er. ya. cos i wana be fair. haha. one more thing. I HATE HEAT STROKE!!!! not goodd at all. all e fainting, e giddiness, e nauseas-iness n everything. stupid weather!!!! AHHHHH!!!!

i am sooo in love with this song. "run devil run" by SNSD!!. yes. rendy, ur fave sica. haha. this is with e chinese subs, to show wat exactly this song means. erhem.. *hint hint* hehe. okok. joking lah. haha. or mybe i like e rhythem too. haha.


okok. study time again. staring too much at e books n notes that i think i am going crazy!!! @.@
Patricia ♥ || 11:40 PM

hmm. sth strike me while i was watching tv today. watch a certain mv. ok. this mv is alittle long time ago le. but. it get me thinking AGAIN..



it is e lyrics tat suddenly wake me up. all e while, whatever i have been thinking for e past few months. seems to be soo wrong. i duno am i just oversensitive?? or izzit that its really tat... i duno. cos is like till now. 2 months to be exact. i am still blur about e whole thing. seriously. everything happen too quickly. too quickly tat 2 months aft wat happen. i am still thinking of wat exactly had happen. cos whatever u say, seems too fake. hai. but nvm. wat is over, is over. no point crying over spilled milk. just that. there will still be a big question mark in my heart. something i think will nv be solved. thank you for leaving a question mark in my life.



aww. always when i reach weekend, i will be packed n i cant study. sian lah. ROAR!! for these whole month. hai. n all e "money paper" are making me breakout!! :( i will be like allergic to it?? itchy everywhere.. :( not good. aft 2mr, should be ok le ba. hai. have to wake up early 2mr. but i just drink coffee... GG. haha. its ok lah...



hard to study now, cos of over usuage of brain just now. *slap forehead* silly girl, think soo much for?? haha. one of my friend told me just now. u think i want ah?? i always think tooo much de. everyone tell me this. serious. soo no choice. haha.



okok. enough of all e emo-iness. afew weeks ago, i saw a huge dog, got horny, n u know stand in front of his owner, n "rock" vigorously. serious. continuously somemore. haha. like rocking n rocking. rest awhile, stand up n rock again. like in e public, in front of everybody. *shocked* haha. kinda not v nice lah. somemore pple r eating nearby. haha. n one thing, e owner is a old n lean woman. soo. ya. u all understand.. haha. 1st time lah. haha.



ok. done le. nth much to write le. have been forcing myself to try to study. aww. 1 more month. miserable month. jiayou everybody!! JIAYOU!! :D
Patricia ♥ || 12:25 AM

wow. long time since i blog. haha. sorry sorry. busy studying lah. but. hai. can 17th may come quick?? my last paper. i am going to die here le. ROAR.. sick n tired of studying. stupid modules, hard to understand, all e chim words to memorise, words as long as like 15 alphabets. ROAR. crazy. hai.

but thinking of 18th may. i just suddenly feel soo weird. soo sad n everything. like. it should be a happiest day for me. if nothing changes. if everything goes back to normal. celebration of my last paper. my 21st bdae, with.. with.. hai. ya. quite sad huh. like this shouldnt be how it should be. no lah. i am not emo. just that come to think of it. this day should be a super happy day for a 21 years old girl like me. "we" had plans on that day too. just tat. it such a pity ba. for me, its just tat. weird ba. i duno. dun wana spell everything too obvious here. wats over is over le ba.

happen to come across someone's blog ytd. hmm. accidentally. she was attached to someone that not alot of pple like. they were super sweet. hmm. maybe to themselves. cos we dun like e guy. tgt gor close to 5 years n brokeup. n now both are attached with different partners. within half a year?? haha. i duno. but. it seems like WOW for me. haha. ok. but one thing that the girl is similar to me, is tat we both just want simple relationship, sweet n simple love. tats all. this is one thing i totally agree with her. haha. actually she's quitte a nice n good girl. yes. she is younger than me. haha. quite matured of her to think like this.

AHHHH. super junior went kl to have their concert, but y not spore?? if they come, i confirm 100% plus chop go for their concert. serious. like AHHHHHH. y not in spore. watch some parts from utube. soooo cute of them to have their concert starting this way. haha. especially my donghae. sexy fishy??? haha. when is he sexy?? wahahahah. or maybe i will get their concertdvd ba. i mean i wana watch e whole concert..

plus plus luo zhi xiang concert. 22 may. aww. should i go?? but most ex is $178!!!! is like O.O WAT!! soo ex. was thinking of going there cos i fin exams and sort of a gift for myself.. hehe. such an expensive gift. sooo of cos i need sponsors. hehe. anybody?? :D hehe... should i go should i?? aww..

sometimes, its best tat i know nothing, rather than knowing everything. its not good to know everything. cos e truth hurts. it hurts badly....
Patricia ♥ || 1:38 AM

hmm. Am i just being bluffing everybody?? Including myself?? I duno. I just suddenly feel so weird. I did a good job in cheating myself. Hai. Just no matter how much glue i applied, e scar is still there. No matter how much coverage i add to it. E scar is still visible. Deeply rooted into my mind. No matter how much things i tried to squeeze into my mind. It will still be there. No matter how bad i think, i still cant forget.

How?? Can somebody tell me e cure to this illness?? I am quite tired of getting it back again n again.
Patricia ♥ || 10:16 PM

wahahaha. singapore has their very own "tiger woods", of cos not e good looking version. ya. everybody know him. e recently got super uber famous jack neo. haha. is it soo fun to be famous in this way?? haha. i duno. n one thing. e wife forgive him. !!??!!huh??!!?? wat?? 伟大. seriously. i mean, maybe cos she thinks for her kids n everything ba. but she knew all these n kept it for a year?? wow. n she is like sort of taking e blame for wat her husband did. n even ask for blessings from e public. WOW. 佩服!! haha. ok. maybe is just other pple's thinking ba. different from mine. ya lor. haha.

aww. had a hard time trying to study n stuff. lucky now kor went overseas for afew days. haha. can like start to study alittle. haha. yupyup. kor went bangkok. haha. ps. kor rmb wat u promise me huh. haha. everything.

u all know e new white coffee that my cutie pie dai yang tian 代言?? ya. its nice. not very sweet. n really nice. i been drinking it for quite a couple of days le. nice. haha. or maybe its cos is him?? nope ba. i think its cos e coffee is really nice. yupyup.

havent being feeling well for a couple of days. cos of e always-changing weather. awhile its pouring, e next moment it will be like super duper hot n humid. just like my mood swings. hehe. serious. soo pple out there. drink lotsa water k. take care. especially those taking exams. exams coming. more pple slping late, more pple pulling hair cos of e stress. haha. but. jia you orh everybody. jiayou!!

米修米修!! :)
Patricia ♥ || 12:10 AM

yay!! got my new pair of glasses. no longer e thick thick act nerd type of glasses. haha. a new haircut too. nice nice. love it. muackz. haha. ok. i think its enough of like everything. seriously need t spend more time on studying. have been quite slack last week. not progressing much. hai. too much temptation. yupyup. n plus. 米修米修... aww. weird mind of mine. if i were to say what i am thinking now. daier n peiwen will scold me. but no choice lah. 米修米修. hai. :( but nvm. will be ok if i conc more on studying.

ok. study time. gonna like study till i cant take it anymore. :) jiayou pple. haha. serious. its funny to see like sooo many same sch pple studying tgt in e same library. haha. like WOW. somemore they maybe studying e same modules as u. haha. cool. like. i duno. weird n funny feeling. haha.

JIAYOU orh peeps. :) continue smiling. :) like me. seriously. i have been smiling soo much that i feel soo much happier. as compared to last year?? haha. ya. n sth. my mama bring up e topic of having bf again. eh. i hope she is not hinting me to find one soon?? er. at this point. nope yet. haha. n er.

erm. aww. headache. okok. erm. to u-know-who-u-are: sorry to hurt ur feelings. but sorry that i replied in that way again. cos. sorry i duno how to react. erm. sorry again. like i duno how many times again le. sorry. but ya. my ans is still e same. sorry if i have hurt u. aww. just soo sorry. just friends ok?? sorry. ya. i dun wana hurt u. ya. soo. erm. ya?? still friends.. sorry.
Patricia ♥ || 1:57 AM

havent had e time to sit down n sort of like write a proper post. haha. being kinda busy. super duper uber busy. haha. kinda emo previously. but cos of mood swings. i can mood swing really fast. haha. everybody who knows me have experience it b4. super scary i tell u. wahahaha. its like my mood can just come n go. like a hurricane. whoosh. n its gone. haha.

ok. earlier. i was talking bout smiling to urself into e mirror. tada. i am not e only one saying its good.

Patricia ♥ || 11:32 PM

its sooo comforting to hear encouragements from ur loved ones, such as ur close ones, friends, relatives n family members. I have realised tat i am able to pick up soo quickly. Is all thanks to all my surrounding friends, all my close ones including my family. Its all their concern that makes me think of not making myself unhappy n stuff which make them even sad. I do not wan those who care about me n love me to feel sad just cos i am sad over worthless people.

Its only because of this worthless people that make me see who r e ones who love me dearly. Who am i to treat well. All e while i have been doing all e wrong things. working like crazy for e wrong person. Treating all those who love me dearly badly. I have been woken up. Seriously. I am sooo regreting of what i have done for e past 1+ years. This unworthy person is not worthy of my tears, my love, my time n energy. Just treating e past like a nightmare. Wasted my time n everything. Seriously.
Patricia ♥ || 12:55 AM

roar. Ytd was just kinda emo. Maybe cos of too much studying. Haha. Nth lah nth. Really. Dun worry peeps. :) just tat those songs r realli nice n e mv r sooo real. Good. N she has a nice voice. 10/10. Haha.
Patricia ♥ || 3:26 PM

aww. this song. everytime i hear. i will cry. every single time. this soo real. like now. :( ok. emo period for me now again. but. why?? why?? why must like that?? huh?? why?? stupid irritating sickening freaking *******. AHHHHHHHHHHH. stupid pig. irritating fatty pig. :( AHHHHHHHHHHHHH.. i hate u. i just...

another nice n sad song. serioously. she can sing really well. the song n e lyrics go straight into ur heart. aww. sad. *sob sob*

this song. is exactly my feelings. aww. aft3 songs. e tap just cant stop.

Patricia ♥ || 12:07 AM

aww. Studying in e library. Seriously. I feel like putting my head on e table n slp. Eyes shutting. These books r soo good at putting me to slp. "good books". Haha. But. No matter wat, i have to continue studying. Roar. Jia you pple. Saw lots of UOL pple here. Haha. Cool. Like everybody is getting ready for prelims. Haha. Funny how it is soooo easy to distinguish UOL pple. Haha. My fren was saying its cos of e book we carry. Easy peasy. Haha.

Ok. I am starting 2 crap. Haha. Not sure y. But my mood is super good today. "i gotta feeling.. Whooooo. That tonight's gonna be a good night..." goody moody. Haha.

Maybe cos i am having snapple now. My fave snapple + m&m chocolate in my baggy. Hehe. I know. But cant resist temptation lah. Sooo tempting. Its like they r "screaming" out for me to help them leave their shelves. Hehe. Okok. My crap my crap. Haha.

Better stop. If not i will be slacking more. Ciaos. :)
Patricia ♥ || 4:46 PM

aww. i miss all my chocolates n ice cream. all thanks to cny. ok. maybe its my fault. i ate too much during cny. but now, without any chocolate n ice cream. i am not happy. they r my "estasy". haha. i always feel soo much better n happier aft eating them. haha.

米修 米修!! aww. this is my feeling now. haha. but of cos. not "HIM" duh. those close to me know who is e "HIM" haha.

ok. too much to talk. but no time. slacking too much. exams 2 months time. study n mug all day long. 24/7.

time to mug again..
Patricia ♥ || 9:10 PM

regreting not listening to my friends last time. Serious. Last time my friends were like "huh?? Wat?? U feel happy meh??" but i just ignore them. Seriously. How foolish i am. Sth like 旁观者清. Sth like. Haha. Laughing at my own mistakes. Trusting e wrong person. Making me not being able to trust pple. How silly. A wall barrier build between me n e world. Silly me to push myself into this state myself. Seriously. Nv trust others soo easily. Tats me. Tats y i will sooo easily be cheated. Really. I guess i need some time to build e trust again. Or need e help of other pple. My v own angel. :) but. I guess theres no1 2 blame but myself. Cos i am e one who push myself into e fire n hurt myself. But lesson learnt.

Honestly i think theres e bad pple in e world to bring out e goodness in all e good pple. This is one thing i still believe. N those bad pple. U reap wat u sow. U do bad things to pple. U will get ur retribution. It may not be now. But e time will come. Not that i am cursing these pple, but this is wat i believe.

Nothing is smooth sailing in life. If ur life is smooth sailing, then wats e use of living. Cos one will learn from setbacks. N if u have no setbacks to learn from, u will nv grow up n learn. So of cos, i feel that i have grown up alittle. Mature alittle. Aft all these setbacks. Nobody say life is easy. Nobody say life is hard too. Thats y "i wan nobody nobody but U" haha. Okok. Trying 2 be lame. Cos it seems so serious. Which is not wat i wan. haha. Actually. Life is in ur hands for u 2 control. U control ur own life, how u wan live. Dun let anybody control how u live.

Have been like a counsellor(izzit this spelling??) for my friends. N seriously. I really think i can be one. Seriously. I think its so meaningful to see pple smile. I just love to c pple smile. Of cos is those smile that come from e heart<3. Not those fake for-e-sake-of-smiling type of smile. Tats y i super love babies amiles n laughter. Cos they r sooo innocent n most imptly, they smile right from their heart when they r happy. Aww. Arent they just soooo sweet. Cutie pie. :)

One tip for all. If u feel like e day start out bad or even if u feel unhappy. Look into e mirror. slowly take deep breathe. Then smile to urself into e mirror n think of all those things tat make u happy. *of cos if u r unhappy of ur ex-es or other pple. Dun think of e good time with them. Surely there r other things tat make u happy. Like ur friends, families, pets, fave idol*. Aft awhile. U seriously will feel sooo mush better. Its as if ur day has been brightened up just within afew mins. This works for me. Not sure for e rest. Bur yupyup.

N one last thing. No point thinking bout those unhappy things or person. They r not worth our brain cells. Our mind r to be used for more worth it stuff. If u r unhappy, its a day of unhappiness. U stay happy, its happiness for e rest of e day. Might as well try to stay happy rather than being unhappy for useless n worthless things n person. Agree?? I totally agree. Haha.

So pple. Try to smile n stay happy kk?? Smiles can be "positively contagious". :)
Patricia ♥ || 11:46 PM

omg. Ok. Now e time is like 2am. Hehe. 2mr i have 2 wake up early for cls. But i cant slp. :( super energetic. Maybe its over e timing for me to slp. Hmm. Should i just like wake up?? Aww. Sian lah. Hai. Okok. Was thinking if writing a post of all my crap. But. Hehe. Cos i am using my hp. Lazy 2 on my lappy again, so. Might as well forget it lah. Try to get some slp. So that i can be guai for e last lesson for my cf n macro. Haha. I mean. I think nv once i was attentive in lesson. I mean like really spend all my attention on e lect for e whole solid 3 hours. How can anyone do tat?? I mean any nerdy-s cant do tat ba. Haha. Oops. Hehe. Being rude. Ok. Think will stop here. N force myself into dreamland b4 e entrance to it close when my alarm clock rings.
Patricia ♥ || 1:48 AM

wahahaha. FINALLY ah. have e time to like slack.. haha. ever since new year. i am like busy-ing the whole week. phew. busy cum growing fat cum aching all over. haha.

okok. imagine eating steamboat consecutively for 6 days. yes pple 6 days. roar. ROAR. its really scary lor. serious. everyday steamboat steamboat steamboat. n plus i didnt eat rice, only e food. i can grow like fatter. :( roar. all wasted. :( okok. i admit. cos i ate ba gua too. hehe. my fave. serious. if u dun disturb me. i can finish e whole box of ba gua. just by watching tv n eating. hehe. v cool huh. haha. sooo. of cos. i knew i will grow alittle fatter. soo tats y i attempt 2 go on diet b4 cny. haha. imagine. eating steamboat everywhere. frens' houses, own house, grandma house, uncles and aunties houses. WOW. okok. i am alittle sick of them. like i think now. when i smell steamboat, i will be alittle sick. yes. sick. like wana vomit. just like being pregnant when smelling sth u will wan to vomit. yes. thats e feeling. like "AHHHH omg. not again. steamboat". then i will run like miles away from that table. serious. it will be my phobia for afew months. haha. maybe alittle exaggerating. but for now. i am like no more steamboat pls. :) hehe.

aching is due to e "overplaying" of Wii. haha. serious. when i go home. e next day. i cant even use strength on my arm. e whole hand is like dislocated?? haha. feeling yes but u cant even write properly. serious. i forgotten wat i have to fill in e next day n my handwriting is like wow. a 3 year old kid?? crazy. overplaying. haha. but of cos i had fun. haha. n of cos our mj n blackjack session. haha. though i win n loss so over all i think is no win no loss. haha. but nvm. as long as we enjoyed ourselves. :) i mean wat matters is e company. even if u lost like quite alot. u dun mind. as long as i am happy. haha.

n today. my family bought this new n super expensive vaccum cleaner related stuff.. its like WOW. it cleans pratically everything. serious. it cleans like e matress n all e dirt n dust n everything even ur body oil will be collected into this pail of water connected to it u will have a shocked of ur life. its like eww. it looks like those dirty drain water. serious. with all e oil bubbles n everything. eww. imagine slping with them for soo long. omg. bleah. disgusting. ok. of cos. it is really expensive. nobody can ever guess how much it is. serious. dun ever guess. u will faint. haha.

wahahaha. i got like 1 month or izzit 1 year?? ok. i forgot. but nvm. as long its free for e time being. ya. free miotv. ALL CHANNELS. yes. even all e movie n drama that u have to buy. yes. everything. haha. n so my daddy is always in front of e tv watching his soccer. yupyup. haha. n theres this match. real madrid with i forget which other team. in short is zur?? think so. omg. ronaldo's goals were super. his headshot. whew. n it went in. super!! 10 out of 5 points i will give him. ding ding ding. haha. so i guess 2mr is e day i explore all e channels. haha. nv get to explore it. cos we got it like afew days b4 new year. 10th feb i think. n i have no time to even sit in front of e tv 2 watch. soo 2mr i will give myself some time to do so. b4 i start my studying period again. haha.

sch lesson going to end soon. mon will be my last lesson. then break all e way till april b4 i have my revision lesson. soo pls. awc. have our gathering during march. cos april i am packed. yupyup. march is going 2 be super busy for me. studying, bdaes, gatherings. ok. but must conc on studying. no time to waste. chop chop. haha.

ok. time 2 watch my show cum studying. haha. my best at it. multi-tasking. :D plus e sweet smell in my room. i am going to my dreamland soon. i have being dreaming every night. serious. and i know they wont come true. haha. funny huh. i think when one dream while slping. one will feel really tired when u wake up or u will sleep longer than b4. n its proven. cos when dreaming. ur mind is thinking while dreaming. not resting at all. so of cos. i will feel tired. haha. slping like 10 hours everyday. when i used to slp like 7 or 8 hours. haha. me growing into a pig soon. oink oink. hehe.
Patricia ♥ || 11:44 PM

omg. i heard e chinese version of "nobody". ok. being bad. its not nice. it sound soo weird when they change e korean words to chinese. its just too weird. haha. serious. i was like "huh" wat they doing with this song. seriously. i still prefer the original version. i heard e eng version too. erm. original is still e best. really.

aww. was watching e taiwan variety show. this new movie coming up by them, "猛钾" seems nice. haha. but not sure if it will be aired like in spore. :( but nvm. thats wat e internet is for. hehe. will wait till theres like e online version. haha. but of cos, theres 2 good looking guys in there. 赵又廷, 阮经天. sweet. haha. sooo. waiting waiting. haha.

aww. have been slacking for e whole week. no study at all. hai. alittle like worrying. but no worries. cos i have been studying since e start of year. soo should have ample time to finish. jia you orh. :)
Patricia ♥ || 12:21 AM

wahahaha. okok. i realise "hu jun" shouldnt be name hu jun. cos theres an actor that is name hu jun. n er. he is not even half of how "hu jun" looks like. seems like we have to give him another name. haha. how weird jian wei can come out with such weird name for him. haha. maybe should give him an english name. since he speaks english just like normal sporeans. really. haha.
Patricia ♥ || 11:51 PM

aww.after finish watching "avatar" so beautiful. i mean e forest at nite. i just want that scene in my room. except tat it will not be green. hehe. its sooo beautiful. luminious everywhere. aww. *daydreaming* their footprints will light up when they move. aww. soo nice. everywhere they go, its soo pretty. aww. seriously. i am sooo in love with e night forest. soo pretty. i like one of e insect, which spins n light up when he attempt to touch it. aww. soo beautiful. serious. omg. i am like waaaaaaa-ing all e way. hehe. but. nice.

oh ya oh ya. i saw this gay. not sure is for some costume or sth. went to dye her hair just e same as e avatar colour. mixture of bluish green, ocean blue, ocean green. omg. n mind u. its not like afew strand. its e whole head. haha. ok. not 2 be offensive. but it super attract attenion lah. serious. i 佩服 her courage. haha. really daring. haha. i mean when she enter e train. everyone was looking at her. rite?? haha. she is like attention seeking i guess. who will like dye her whole head tat colour. i mean. WOW. i am shocked. ok. but she is like aged around 25,26?? around there. thats y i will say she is couragous. haha.serious. nowadays. pple are soo bold. i saw another grandma. her hair is like stylio. serious. her hair colour. is like white, with mixture of light purple. hmm. like those really light baby purple type. its like wow. grandma age u know. haha. rite?? ya. its sooo. wow. haha.


i find e song ok. but e mv is nice. i like this particular phrase said by e gal. cos i find it sooo true. its sooo me. haha.
"我从来都不说不 不是因为我愿意 是因为我爱你
我从来都不生气 不是因为我没有脾气 是因为我爱你
我从来都不哭 不是因为我没有眼泪 是因为我爱你"
sweet rite. its soo true. n soo me. so i just like e mv. i find e song okok. only haha.

wow. had another like cleanup of my room. i cleared sooo many stuff. hmm. 2 bags full?? haha. yup. getting ready for e new year. helped my mama baked all e new year goodies. pineapple tarts(i can say it is super nice, cos its my grandma secret receipe), kueh buru(should be this spelling, e white colour "cookie", which melt in ur mouth), this round ball(serious i duno its name, but it taste like some nut ball without any nut), and lastly my mama's secret receipe kueh lapis. haha. everybody who tasted her kueh lapis will ask for more. or even ask for orders. but too bad. my mama isnt free to baked sooo many. so. she can only like share around with all our frens. aha. serious. those who dun like kueh lapis will like it when they taste my mama's. cos i am one of those who dun like last time. but now. omg. i can have lots of them. my mama is a great baker. haha. i have learnt alittle from her. but of cos i wana be quite a good cook. :) hehe. nice of me huh. haha.

hai. kinda scared of like cny. cos thats e time where all relatives like crowd around. n ask questions like" ah pat ah. 你有没有男朋友?? 考试考得怎么样??" aww. seriously i should follow kfc advertisement. wahaha. eat their chicken wing n cant hear anything. hehe. i mean last time my uncle being hospitalised, all my relatives were around n they asked me le. *slap forehead* stop pple. if i have a boyfriend. i will let e whole world know. dun worry. :)

ok. time 2 watch my shows. hehe.
Patricia ♥ || 10:29 PM

yay!! 2mr is like my last marketing cls. wee!! ~~ haha. but. that means e start of revision. hai. sian. *sigh* but nvm. enjoy my holi for this week 1st.

ok. some complaining to do. guess wat. my troublesome ah tiong tuition mother msg me just now saying(in chinese, ok. my 1st time receiving such a long chinese msg) her son join some chinese sth competition, so cant have tuition till march. =.= pls. ur son having psle this year, still let him join all these competition for?? crazy. if really he didnt do up to her expectation, it will not be my fault. is her fault. for letting him having sooo many things for?? crazy.

haha. ok. gt 2 stop here. busy woman.
Patricia ♥ || 10:31 PM

hmm. today. was really happy. i mean, my mummy told me sth that nv in my life i thot she will like say it. hmm. everybody should know that my mama is really strict with me. yupyup. including having bf. wahaha. n guess wat. she told me like its ok to have it now. as long as it doesnt affects anything. woot. i am like shocked she told me that. cos all e while i was realli stressed when having one. cos afraid of her knowing. now i can like not worry anything when i have one. i can like be more natural n like stress free when i have one. ya. hmm. i mean i can like be more myself, instead of thinking of sooo many things when i spend time with my future bf. by then lesser problems n stuff. yay. :) cos all e while, it has been a phobia for me. serious. like every now n then, i will worry bout meeting or seeing anybody i shouldnt c. frequently looking around in case. my mind will not be with me. it will be wondering around. serious. now. i can worry less. :)

just came back from shopping. bought sooo many stuff. finally got my own curler cum straightener. have been deciding which 2 get.

seriously, i am like soo happy now. aft wat my mama told me. i mean no words can describe my feelings now. really. it like cloud 9 wont even be able 2 describe my feelings. woot. :D
Patricia ♥ || 7:11 PM

omg. i am like soo super mad at this tuition kid's mother of mine. ROAR. btw. she is an ah tiong. not that i am like prejudice or sth. but she is asking for discount for her child's tuition. n not only that. 2day is our 1st tuition. n she forgot. omg. ROAR. i went to their house, ring e doorbell, knock on e door. n in e end called her. ok. thats ok. but one thing, she stays in a condo, i had a hard time like finding her block. is like a maze in there. one more thing, her condo is like in e middle of nowhere. have 2 walk like 5 mins to reaach?? hai. ok. not only that. her kid is scoring like 80, 90+, n she want tuition for her kid, cos she wans e kid to score A*, ok. no problem, but she called me like a week ago, asking me how am i going to do to her kid. n just now, when she ask for discount, she asked me again. hello auntie, do u think u r in e market?? ROAR. discount. weird. she was expecting me to like provide her discount when she ask for e price for like 2hr duration instead of 1 1/2hr. hello. 1st thing, ur fees is like e lowest of e lowest already. auntie, u wan discount?? go to e market to look for a tutor then. u confirm can get discounts and ur acceptable price.


Patricia ♥ || 10:39 PM

hai. this is exactly my thinkIng n feeling now. ok. i thought i am strong enough. serious. i thought i got through the whole thing. telling everybody i aM ok, dun need to worry about me. smiling n laughing In front of everybody. aSSuring pple that everytHing Is ok. but slowly, i realise these are of no use 2 Me anymore. i have been like trying all ways to bluff my frens, including myself. wat a joke. forcing myself to think of everything i think. i am soo naive. i thought by like remain smiling or laughing, telling pple i am ok. i will realli be ok?? how naive i am. suddenly felt that all these methods just dun work on me anymore. aft like 5days?? they just dun work anymore. i just duno wat 2 do. all my frens have being saying that i am soo strong, asking me to stay strong. to be honest. i am just an empty shell. acting strong in front of everybody. serious. everybody. but when i am alone, seriously i am just like not strong anymore. all my kept feelings flow out. sometimes i just have a hard time keeping, that i have 2 like excuse myself. seriously. i know this is e 1st time i am writing this aft wat happen. 2 many they may be shocked. super shocked. cos all e while i have been acting strong, smiling, laughing, joking and everything. but sorry pple, this is exactly how i am feeling. i have been keeping it for like soo many days. maybe i just cant take it any longer. i have to let it all out. seriously, if anybody were to take a look at my hp, they will be shocked at wat i have been trying 2 input into my brain, so as 2 prevent any outburst of my feelings. n i guess they dun work anymore.

dun worry pple. dun need 2 worry about me. seriously. ok. change topic. i am seriously in deep trouble, my STM(short term memory) is like getting from bad to worst. last time, i can forget things within a day. which means when i thought of something in e day, i will completely forget about it at night. hai. sad case. ok. for now. its worst. e next min, i can forget. serious. i can like totally forget what i was talking about e min b4. is there any cure for this?? i think i need a doc for this. maybe in future, i may just forget who i am. like serious. ok. just now when i was bathing, i am thinking of lots of thing. now. seriously i cant rmb anything. really. i am that serious. or is it cos my mind i selectively remember things?? remember only e good n positive things?? i duno.

hai. quite a suai day today. went home. no water at all. e whole block ok. is like from 6pm, no water coming out of e tap till like 10pm. omg. i thought i cant bathe for today. i am so afraid of that. cos i wont be able to slp without bathing. i have 2 be clean when i slp. plus, today is a super humid day, n i am feeling soo hot that i am looking forward to taking a long bath when i reach hm. aww. super sian. at bout 9pm, e town council called n inform us to go downstairs 2 collect water. er. hello its soo "total defence day" for us. ok. but lucky e water came out. n reason for this, cos sth wrong with e pump. crazy lah. serious.

saying about bathing. my frens were super shocked that i took 30-40 mins to bathe. eh dun all gals take a long time 2 bathe?? i duno. i thought so. i mean their reactions are all e same, similar to my family n relatives too. "what r u doing inside??" er. my ans is 2 bathe lah. duh. but my siblings always joke that i have 2 take out all my bones to scrape. thats y i will took soo long 2 bathe. n of cos was scolded by my grandma. cos she say its like erm, sth related 2 ghost or sth. ya. was thinking. if really i have a bathtub, wa. i think i will take like an hour.

Patricia ♥ || 10:28 PM

this is e song ba. really make me like think through. seriously. so i think this is really a nice song, with meaningful lyrics, with nice mv. :) haha. actually, our friends can be our psychologist. they will import alot of info into our mind. but they may not be good one. so our mind have 2 act like a filter to filter out e bad ones n take in e good ones. of cos good doesnt mean those pleasant to our ears. good means beneficial to us.

ipad is out!! omg. its soo cool. haha. but it seems soo funny. like e expanded size of itouch. just a screen n stuff. haha. n its super ex lah. nice 2 c. nice 2 have. but just acts like a normal comp. soo. no point for me 2 have. but i dun think so it will like cause a big ho ha ba. cos nobody is really talking bout it. everyone is like"oh, apple come out sth special AGAIN" haha. cos apple frequently comes out with special things, too often that pple sort of got sian n feeling-less bout it. (something that i learn from jian wei) haha. this applies to our life too. seriously. n i think wat jian wei says is so true. haha.

thanks all my friends, for hearing me out. seriously. i mean. i am like. RRROOOAAAARRR now. haha. all your advice are like really good ones. haha. seriously. really good one. haha. jalene u know wat i am talking rite?? hehe. too bad for today lah. haha.

totally slacking in sch today. out of 6 hours, i think i am like only listening for 1 hr?? haha. rest of e time, we are like having fun. wahaha. how i wish every mon lesson can be soo slack like today. soo relaxed. but. i just dun like my 2nd lect. she always didnt like focus her visualizer. in e end, coping her notes make me headache. in e end i just give up. cos its blur, words too small, her voice is soft. makes me wana fall aslp. haha.

i have like a long list of stuff i wana do. sort of my hobby list. haha. but i think i can only follow this list when i finish my exams. ya. cant do it now. too time consuming le.

wow. a poly students post her nude photos on her blog?? somemore her bf allows her to do that. one word. BOLD. i mean. this is why there are soo many ji co bei around. seriously. perverts out there are caused by this. hai. poor thing. not poor thing for that girl. but poor thing for the other girls. tsk tsk.

okok. studdy time. being slacking too much.

Patricia ♥ || 10:12 PM

aww. seriously. which gal dun like dai yang tian?? he is like. soo super cool n shuai ok. honestly, i watch e sunday channel 8 8pm show. is due to him. if not. i wont be watching at all. ya. i mean. he is not only e young girls "killer", he is also e aunties "killer" too. my mum n even my frens mum were like praising him like nobody's business. omg. girls go gaga cos of him lah. even me. oops. haha.

honestly. why pple always like to take me for granted?? make use of me?? am i so easy to make use?? i am nice to pple. then tkey just treat me lidat. seriously. i am like so super hurt u know. i am just so confused n everything. stupid pple. sickening bunch.

am just too tired. seriously. over usage of my brain. cant think well now.
Patricia ♥ || 12:10 AM

was watching e news. omg. just to enter IR is like $100. pls lah. i might as well go genting. i mean i am like at e legal age to enter. who bother to spend $100 to enter somewhere that is similar. yup. on "mountain tortise" pple will. haha. just jking. dun take it to heart. if i were to go in. i will be like exploring. n maybe if something catch my eye. i will just stick to that machine n keep playing. of cos i will be more discipline. wont be like my grandma. who played till she didnt wana go slp. how cute she is. aww. i just soo wana hug my grandma. i realise i miss her. e last time i saw her was when my uncle was in e hosp. she is soo adorable. when she tell us some funny jokes. she will smile. i love to hold on to her when we are walking. her hands maybe wrinkled, but still so soft. or maybe i just love to hook pple hands when i walk. erhem. only gals. unless u r my boyfriend. haha. serious. from sec sch till now. phs frens, yjc frens, starhub pple, prudential frens. everybody. haha. weird habit of mine. maybe i feel more secured in this way. ya.

thanks pple for all ur care n concern. honestly. i think my family did a great job. i mean they dun know wat is happening. but i guess they sort of found out i am not in good mood. so they kinda attempt to make me happy?? i think so. ya. laughing at e silliest joke that i tell them. jking around to make me laugh. i mean this shows who exactly are ur loved ones. serious. like. ya. no need to explain anymore. btw. thanks all of u all that show ur concern. :)

went to get a new hp. though not iphone or LG crystal. but i still love it alot. my fave colour. which sort of like take up lots of my time just to like transfer all my data.

attempt to like go jogging at nite. n guess wat. by then i reached hm. its like 10+ going 11. i dun feel safe jogging at this timing. cos my auntie once told me a lady was raped like near e stadium at like late at nite while she was jogging too. eww. scary. so of cos. she sort of like remind me nv to jog alone. especially at nite. n ya. i cant. hai. hopefully i can do it 2mr. i mean. i need to tone up. though my mum said i grew thinner. i dont think so. cos my weight didnt go down. but serious, my clothes sort of enlarge. duh. of cos lah.

just chose my revision cls ytd. omg. counting down. its sooo fast. like zoom zoom. n tada. u reach e exam day. wow. n aft tat. it marks e end of year 2. one more year to go. n hello working world. will i be prepared?? hmm. maybe alittle. but still excited like a small kid entering a new playground, with soo many things to explore. cool

on fri, i went library to study without my pencil case, how forgetful am i. in e end i just stay in e library to read a book. cos i have tuition aft that. aft awhile. my hp just off cos of no batt. omg. i started 2 panic. i seriously cant be outside without my hp. i will like start 2 panic, somemore i am alone. :( dont feel good the whole day. ok. not only that. went to tuition house. n guess wat e tuition was cancelled. n i didnt know cos my hp was off. *slap forehead* at first i was waiting at e void deck. not sure wat time cos no watch + hp. so wait at e void deck. then this guai beibei came to talk to me. telling me long time no see. er. in e first place i dun even know u. hello. n he keep asking me how many years i didnt see him le. er. ok. i just take cos he is alittle u know. btw he is on wheelchair. so i not sure wat to do. just sat there n sort of have some "chit-chat" session with him. ps. his maid at e side. he ask me wat am i doing here. so i told him i giving tuition here. n he was like wow. he asked soo much bout tuition. saying he wana learn chinese n everything. ask me to give him tuition. i seriously duno wat 2 do. in e end i have 2 bluff him to like leave e place. ok. very good. 4pm. time for tuition. went to e house. "ding=dong" no ans. omg. not again. hai. yes. not again. i waited for like 2hrs. standing there. cos i was thinking maybe she wana start tuition at 6pm. ok. cool. i dun dare sit at void deck. so i stand near her house. waiting. ok. i gave up. went hm. n guess wat. lucky i didnt wait even longer. cos she cancelled e whole tuition. omg. wat an unlucky day for me. lousy thing happen. all on one day. but lucky. no more of unlucky things anymore. very good.

ok. a very long entry. btw. thanks pple. really appreciate all your care n concern. i feel sooo loved. aww. my sweet frens. love u all. muacks pple. haha. only to gals. ok. have to start my study now. have being slacking e past few days. very good break. feel sooo energetic now.
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